days left t live…

in sg that is. ha.

am i looking forward? been thinking bout that.

looking forward but not excited / looking forward cause i cant look back
moving forward creating regret / pushing forward dont pull me back


listen and learn. truth.

I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through


counting down

how many more meet-ups, lunches, drinks, trainings, games, bumming, loitering, chilling sessions am I down t?

so yea it’s 2am and I’ve been awake over forty hrs. how’d I survive basketball prac?

I’ve been writing. as always.

the affirmations scare me
they add weight upon my back
dont expect too highly
i’ve been known to crack


we look like we levitating.

4/4 = 4 beats in a bar

got the third track t arrange. it’s nuts.

sudden changes t 3/4, 5/4, then a stop (cant call it kicks and attacks) for 7 beats…

and i dont quite know if the notes are bent/flattened intentionally or… haha. i thought the first 2 vox recs were bad… this is… hmm.

was told that a lecturer wld be mixing the tracks. so i was like, Geoff? and was told, no, er, Timothy.

he wants my session files. meaning he’s mixing in logic… or rather, just gon be making adjustments t my mix… haha. i almost fell off my chair.

will work on it tmr. gotta get in work mode and stop criticizing/complaining/ranting/spitting sarcasm.

aside from this proj…

i responded t the dmatsc email yesterday on HELP DESPERATELY NEEDED. cause i thought they really meant that help was desperately needed. tday i got a reply,

We are good, thanks for offering!
you can come down to enjoy the music and mingle! theres pizza and food 🙂
mingle. er, nope.

and another

POW on sat. was nice.

yesterday was spent in school acting as a first year kid. ha.

gon get another arr proj tmr night.

prep for the move. 7 weeks t go.

arranging meet-ups with people is a… chore. anglican, sp, old classmates, seniors, juniors, people i havent seen in too long, people i once knew. oh well. guess i’ll regret typing this when i’m all alone in the states. ha.

tday i shall allow myself t seek inspiration and not write or work. just allow my brain t process the sounds and not try t produce anything. which is very difficult.

i’ve got 387 friends on Fb. 106 of whom i do not know and/or have not seen at all. wtf?


just done with watching LP Live from Madrid DVD, and Live in Texas VCD.

VCD. whoa. it doesnt even run smooth anymore.

well this is Phoenix, if you dont already know…

if you’ve got Live in Texas, go to “A Place For My Head” and watch closely. he almost did an ankle-breaker on himself. haha.

and this is Phoenix now.

and i disagree with all the talk bout old / new linkin park. LP is LP.

yes i’m free from my arr projs so i’ve got time for this.

gotta love megaphone brad.

and gotta be looking forward t this.

LP Live + Lasers

A Thousand Suns – Linkin Park + DVD Live From Madrid

Lasers – Lupe Fiasco


“We want to think our own thoughts.”

“We want an end to to the processed culture of exploitation, over-consumption and waste.”

and yea the background is proof that i’m working. ha.

i end my arranging work once i finish bouncing indiv tracks and sending the folders out. yeaaa.

orchard station is a depressing place. grand prix adverts and LP as background music with the fast cars racing cross the screens, mike’s face on every other pillar… i wont be here in sept. nooooo.